i am bored. yes. i can't sit at home and do nothing (which encompasses reading 'introduction to law' and summarising my pfp interview) even for a day. i am officially becoming a couch potato.

i despise the fact that i refresh hermes every 5 seconds, desperately awaiting replies, in which my future depends on (well, it isn't as bad as it sounds-i just need to know if i am allowed to do law in my third year-hence, my future, but only for a year)

but when one spends her time surfing the internet by reading zunar's comics (imustcommendhimonhiscreativity), trying to enhance her intellectual reservoir or at least feel like she's attempting to, discovering the link between sociology, anthropology and law, and questioning why she is doing medicine of all subjects in the world, you should take pity on her.

i think i have become more superficial in my learning. the whole process of rote-rehearse-regurgitate definitely isn't aiding my thought process and this has its ramifications-in my terms (though medically inaccurate), non-pathological-course-dependent-frontal lobe atrophy (completely fictitious).

so i hear of the U.S. Supreme Court extending gun rights; right to keep and bear arms for the purpose of self-defence vs. efforts to reduce role of firearms in American life; Chicago shootings and in the UK, Cumbria-and yet i do not seem to challenge this in a way i think i would have before reading medicine. i should have a stand, but i don't-that's probably because the majority in Malaysia aren't too exposed to our own laws and the society hardly has a role to play in changing law, so why care? we do not question the law since we know nothing about it, and we obey it out of a genuine worry about the consequences of disobedience, what not with our friendly, partial press reporting fates of 'criminals'. a habit of obedience, as Austin calls it, with the ever-present threat of sanctions (in which home has an incalculable collection of, repressive much?). punishable for acts we never knew were crimes to begin with.

then you hear of China-Taiwan bilateral ties (finally!) mostly achieved through new laws-all politically and economically-driven. and i still don't question its flaws, neither am i skeptical of this oh-too-samaritan-like facade.

at the end of it all, i narrow it down to just one thing-i have lost my brain doing medicine for 2 years. maybe not the entire brain-i am sure those required for sensory and motor functions are still intact, and one thing for sure, my hippocampus is probably as large as an elephant or perhaps a London taxi driver's. i've just lost the parts that make me different from an automaton.

hmmm. i should blog on asturias. yes, after i'm done with answering 'how one would assess the benefits of complementary medicine', and also after the Jap vs Paraguay match. asian pride.