Bon Voyage!

I still remember being envious of seniors leaving college a year back, about how they could finally leave what I used to call a hoosegow. However, one year later, I find myself feeling nostalgic at the thought of leaving the country. I actually miss college! (yes, even I can't believe I'm saying this!) I miss that secret ingredient of togetherness we shared when we were thrown into oblivion in that oil palm plantation. In that 2-year period, I discovered and learnt aspects of mankind; the fact that this world does not revolve around just me and that I just can't have everything the way I want it, the brutality of those judgmental and that no one can be trusted. But also, I realised the world isn't as bad as many believe it to be. I used to think everyone was like me-individualistic, self-centered and denigrative. Pretty much the 'I don't care what happens to the rest of the world, as long as I survive-survive well that is' attitude. Thus, at the beginning, I despised the collectivisitic methods of college, its dogmatism and the egocentric behaviour of the administrators. But it was from the teamwork necessary in almost every activity we engaged in (except our assignments of course!) that I saw the goodness in others.

*sighs* I don't have much time left. So let's skip the emotional heap and adopt systematic presentation. In a nutshell,

(i) Every cloud has a silver lining-why remember the bad and forget the good? As all men and women have both testosterone and estrogen present, both good and bad characteristics are there in all of us to be discovered. As Buddhism encourages one never to denigrate others and aggrandise oneself, learn to believe that it is the goodness we should live on with, and it is that pearl in which we should shine. As I've said before, flush down our egocentric side.
(ii) You are what you believe yourself to be-shove aside your propensity to pay so much attention to what people think of you. This will only hinder your process of self-development. Believe in what YOU want to be, and strive to achieve it regardless of whether or not people think you can. If you like singing, by all means, get yourself on stage and start singing! That's what I did back at college, and tada! It didn't turn out too bad! My maths teacher got me to record the official Maths website song with a very good compatriot of mine!
(iii) Failure is inexistent-You only fail when you stop trying. Never, at any cost, give up. NEVER. Because when even you think you yourself have lost all hope, there's nothing left to get yourself moving once again. You pass everyday hoping that you didn't. Bear in mind that regardless of what position you take in this hierarchal society, YOU HAVE A PURPOSE. Fulfill this purpose. The world depends on it. As Paul Davies stressed in The Goldilocks Enigma, all of us, I repeat, every single one of us, have a special place in the ticking of the Universe.
(iv) Aim for the stars-and..NO, don't think that it's alright even if you did fall. You won't fall to the moon. You fall to the dark, ether (scientifically wrong, just for literary purposes) space and drown in this organic compound. You shouldn't even THINK of failing. Believe in the Law of Attraction itself, because if you don't, practising it would be of no use. Believe it works, if not, the idea of attracting what you desire simply by thinking of it would be baseless. (Note: Apparently, this law of attraction has roots in quantum physics, but on this topic, we shall not elaborate.)
(v) Remember the first 4 under any circumstances. :)

Life is a bed of roses! Life is fair! It has been for me, at least. Many have told me that life isn't as idealistic as I think of it to be. But who cares, I'm the author of my book of life. I decide on what I want and do not want to think. I determine which path I shall traverse. And shall I suffer the consequences of my belief, I'll pull through the aftermaths by upholding my principles.

So, the time has come. Goodbye Malaysia :) *bah, I'll be back in 2 months anyway!*

*sighs*

We, advocates of human rights should all mourn for a country that still chooses to remain in the labyrinth of praetorian bureaucracy.

Free those with conscience and imprison the sycophants!

Mareishia Mareishia

Stalemates are always boring. Pre-departure life is lackluster despite the pressing need to pack. Have been procrastinating from accomplishing the list of basic science terms Cambrijee sent over. Hehe. Have been repeatedly advised to be slightly more apolitical hence my lost of interest in blogging recently.

I guess I misprize the importance of blogs in expressing oneself. Never was the eloquent type to begin with. *sighs* Anyway, it's great to know Teresa Kok's finally released from the 6ft*8ft cell-one can't help but to vividly imagine how claustrophobic that could get! It's worrying to know that RPK still is detained despite health complications.

Ooh! I know I'm outdated, but I just found out that our DAARRRLLIINNGGG 'albatross' baby proposed a Race Relations Act. *yawns* Another act to reinforce the fact that democracy, in Malaysia is but a facade. This isn't solving the problem at its core. We need to stop labeling each other according to race, forget our differences and work on our similarities. That's it! But for the power hungry, bangsa Malaysia is all..balderdash. Playing race-based politics, to them is the best method to ensure their survival, and their 51 (or perhaps more) years of tyranny. My hypothesis is that all Malaysians are at risk of racial riots every 20 years. It's pretty much like how the economy may trip into a recession in the postulated 10-year business cycle. 1969, 1988 and the most recent 2008. May 13th, Operasi Lalang and Malaysian 'squatters'! :D Whenever UMNO finds themselves losing support, they'd stir racial sensitivities.

1988-Political turmoil in UMNO itself brought about Team A and B, subsequently UMNO Baru and Semangat 46. What did the intelligent medical student do then? Ooohh, they never do the dirty work. NEVER. Get the young, naive and delicate creatures to do the filthy job! Senang je..Ah Jeep and Kimchi-san can execute his master plan and he watches at the comfort of his armchair. At least by doing that, he'd be able to secure some extreme voters, no? Hmm..Upon reflection, I just realised that 1969 and 1988 shared one hero. The Dreaded Man. It is a fact that the May 13 incident didn't occur spontaneously. It was a coup d'etat against Tunku Abdul Rahman, and he was well-aware of it. I believe I've stated before that TAR predicted the May 13 massacre on May 10th itself and announced it on radio channels worldwide. But not many believed him. I extracted this statement from one of the books a casually skimmed through:-

"You know Harun was one of those..Harun, Mahathir, Ghazali, Shafie..who were all working with Razak to oust me, to take over my place.."

To forget history is to repeat it. The non-Malays should not be insinuated by racial statements purposely made by politicians to instigate racial riots. Bear in mind that it's all part of Ummm-Nooo's plot to stay in power. Through this, nevertheless, we can almost be certain that it's topsy-turvy in there :P

Remember. Remain cool, calm and composed. We're an educated bunch. We don't fall for their games.

Platinum weiii!

I don't want to leave!! *sniff sniff* Ironic enough, I recall saying the exact opposite, even more passionately 2 years back! I immediately feel reluctant to pack upon thinking of the academic pressure that awaits me. TAK NAK! TAK NAK! :P My clothes itself already weigh 20 kg which happens to be my weight limit. That simply implies that I'd have to streamline my luggage once again.

10-12kg on clothes and the remaining for the miscellaneous. Enough about leaving the country. Let's talk about Cathay Cineleisure's Platinum Movie Suite! :P Get 2 tickets for the price of 1- That's RM 25 for two people! Valid everyday (including public holidays) before 6 p.m. It's definitely a deal never to be forgone!

The usual three musketeers (Sawo, Sayang and I) paid a visit to the Platinum Movie Suite for the first time and decided to watch...*drumrolls*

Which, by the way, got sayang all cuddled up and shivering

One word to describe the movie. Gruesome. We had blood spurting in all directions. Sensational murder. And a decent load of anatomy. Of pyramidal tracts, brachial artery..liquid nitrogen, asphyxiation..nitric acid and hyperosmolarity. Anoxia and Hypoxaemia. Not to mention a huge deal of snipping with enormous hand shears. Overall, demented.

Now, on how we spent the hour before the movie started. Sawo brutally snatched the Xbox from me and was satisfied with his comfortable couch and the temperate conditions of the lounge. Sayang and I however decided to pursue another luxury of life; massage. We got ourselves 45 minutes of a Swedish massage and discussed about the LHC, Big Bang, Higgs boson and even wormholes. Oh yes, and also the recent MRI image of orgasm. hehe!


We engaged in a light debate on wormholes (which I finally won of course! CHEWAH :P) and decided to even search the internet regarding the subject. We stumbled on this pic

Sayang immediately exclaimed, "Wah, ada throat lagi!"

I give up on him. Period. The reclining seats in the cinema were as usual, beautiful.


On another note, Aunt Mary, my singing teacher gave me beautiful hair accessories as my farewell gift. Will snap a picture of the gift later and shall update this post when I've done so. I'll definitely miss singing, and Aunty Mary..and vocal opening sessions :)

Ku Man Hae

Figure out what the title means yourself :P

Lose:

(i) Egocentricism
(ii) Abnegation
(iii) Fear
(iv) Judgmentalism
(v) Prevarication

Siapa makan cili dialah rasa pedasnya.

This post is not targeted towards anyone in particular but simply a matter of self-reflection.

Food For Thought

A Little Cherokee Story

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.

He said, 'My son, the battle is between 'two wolves' inside us all.

'One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.'

'The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.'

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, 'Which wolf wins?'

The old Cherokee simply replied, 'The one you feed.'

School rules are meant to be broken-only those who break them would survive after all :)

I've figured out a new way to express my dissatisfaction! Try understand me if you can! Buah kakaka!

Yi ka, ngo dei ke PM yiu pei ge kok ka zhi to hui yao lik liong, so yi hui yong ISA lei pik 3 ko yan yap kam. FINE. This isn't working.

Oh come on! The candlelight vigil is perhaps the most peaceful form of protest! You didn't have to disperse them in 12 minutes! I'm beginning to wonder..hmmm..who could the mastermind be?

Let's say, erm..the discipline teacher conspires with the frequent rule-breaker at school to put some of his disliked students in detention. And let's say these goody-two-shoes are naive, idealistic creatures who would never expect such connivances.

Mr. Abdul, the discipline teacher promises Amat, the notorious student to exclude him from all punishments for his previous offences just so that he'd assist Abdul in achieving his ultimate goal. And so this is the plan: Amat is to claim that he smoked discreetly at 10.30a.m. earlier. Ah Lian, the ever-nosy school magazine editor reports that Amat admitted to smoking at 10.30 on a Monday morning (That day was a Monday mind you). Coincidentally, Abdul secretly despises Ah Lian for her somewhat veracious nature. Amat was then absent from school for a period of time and returned reprimanding Ah Lian for tarnishing his image, also demanding for an apology. He claims that the word 'earlier' in his statement referred to the day before, a Sunday which wasn't a schooling day. So, it was World War III between Amat's loyal 'konco-konco' and Ah Lian's eye-witnesses and supporters.

The school's renowned 'rant and rave' guy, ManMan could not hold back and spilt everything onto his blog. Abdul who regards freedom of speech with utmost disdain saw his opportunity coming. To appear rather just, he suspends Amat from school for the next few years; the students were generally glad (well, of course except for Amat's konco's). But next, he abuses his veto power and 'imprisons' Ah Lian and ManMan with the excuse of securing peace and tranquility at school. Apparently, they were creating too much hoohah and their schoolmates were beginning to lose focus on their studies.

For some reason or another, Abdul still wasn't satisfied. He was still..threatened by the more competent and charismatic Ah Wah. So, he decides to deter Ah Wah from even hoping for his position by capturing his compatriot, Cuckoo. Don't ask me about Cuckoo's abrupt introduction into this story. I do medicine, all I do is regurgitate.

Abdul, too pressured by all the vituperations decided to release Ah Lian. But poor poor ManMan and Cuckoo's condition are still unknown. And now, Cuckoo's gone! The plot deepens! Hehe! But how much longer will it take before sudden death takes place?

So, you tell me. As the chess piece, should Amat bear all the burden or should Abdul be responsible for this crackdown? Or worse, perhaps the fact that Abdul's predecessor allowed the breeding of Amat's species and even catalysed it should be taken into consideration?

If this case took place a decade ago, perhaps the students wouldn't bother that much. Ignorance is bliss. They wouldn't bother simply because they didn't understand the concept of collectivism. They didn't simply because Abdul's predecessor wouldn't elucidate them on this 'right' they were awarded with since birth. So, even if dozens of Ah Lians and ManMans were arrested, the students wouldn't be infuriated. But things have changed, and Abdul wouldn't have it the easy way.

The students wouldn't like Abdul's dictator ways. And Abdul would be shelled. His plans would only backfire and it'd only pave a clearer and easier path towards victory for Ah Wah. Abdul's initial plan to warn students that he doesn't favour himself being criticised would only be an action of positive feedback. The students know what they can and cannot do, and they have the backing of clubs and societies.

But is that enough? The students are still no match for the entire troop of Abdul's Kadet Remaja Polis or Kadet Bersatu. They can't use guns. When they opt candles, Kadet Remaja chooses guns. Tell me, who'd dare face gunpowder? We don't find many Master Jirans of Qixia Temple 1937.

Remember, at school, rules and regulations are meant to be broken. Facts are meant to be distorted. Ah Lian was detained to protect her from Amat's koncos. Cuckoo, for reasons proven to be untrue. Things just work otherwise at school here. If nobody sorts out these distortions, I'm afraid this school may be closed down soon.

Sediakan Payung Sebelum Hujan LORR

I've deleted some posts just to be safe lor. Better to be safe than sorry mah. Plus I'll be leaving in 15 days, so why put myself at risk?

It's sad that the comments go along with the posts though :(

ARGH!

OH MY GOSH! My uncle's stalking me *shivers* Aiyoyoyoyo..DIE LOR :P

GO AWAY!! Oh yes, if you're bothered to read this, we'll be visiting you soon, so brace yourself! Buah kakaka!

A somewhat..veridical (?) discussion about racism between Faiz sayang and me.

Faiz and I were at the end of our tethers about the current political scene, that we diverted our topic of discussion from hurricanes...to the..hmmm..NEP?

unicefKanzen*naf says:
I watched it in Eureka and it's amazing how they do it!
paezbak says:
u mean hurricane pakai vapour or water?
paezbak says:
ok
paezbak says:
sambung balik
paezbak says:
i disagree with malay supremacy
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
I don't even know where to start!
paezbak says:
but somehow
paezbak says:
i agree with the privileges given
paezbak says:
*bcus i received one
paezbak says:
hehhe
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
*faints*
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
I do not think you should be having that sort of mentality
paezbak says:
no laa
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
You received your scholarship based on your own capability
paezbak says:
gurau jee..
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
Not because of the special privilege
paezbak says:
i know i am capable
paezbak says:
heheh

paezbak says:
IB can score what

paezbak says:
heheh

paezbak says:

paezbak says:
but not as good as you laa..

paezbak says:
heheh

paezbak says:

*unicefKanzen*naf says:
I agree up to an extent that perhaps the education privilege awarded should be maintained, but I also feel that it should be toned down, and well..bent a little

*unicefKanzen*naf says:
For example, the UiTM issue. Why not open it up to more non-Malays? It's time to push the students OUT of their comfort zone. Competition, after all is the best route to improvement

*unicefKanzen*naf says:
The only reason I would agree with the educational advantage is due to sheer demography. First of all, Malays are the majority of our population, thus whether we like it or not, part of the formula should consider the demographic aspect. Secondly, if Chinese and Indians were to insist on shunting away the NEP and all other privileges, they first need to provide ground for the Malays to better ..

*unicefKanzen*naf says:
themselves, and what better method is there than education?
paezbak says:
you know sherms
paezbak says:
sometimes
paezbak says:
its easy for us, me and you to discuss about this...
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
Next, we also have to take into consideration the geographical allocation of the Malays ie..the more rural areas, and having said that would automatically imply a shortage of infrastructure etc..and it is these people we want to move away from poverty to close the economic gap
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
I know
paezbak says:
but when we go meet the ppl kat bawah sane
paezbak says:
ull know what they are thinking
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
I believe that's the advantage of being in the middle-class
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
We are neither rich or poor
paezbak says:
kite cam dlm comfortable zone
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
The rich would want to keep their fortune, and wouldn't give a damn about all these
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
The poor would only focus on how distraught they are about being..well, poor and disadvantaged!
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
We have our plights too sayang
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
The middle-class, if maintained righteous (meaning..DOWN WITH CORRUPTION, DOWN WITH RACISM etc), would never climb up the ladder
paezbak says:
but for us
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
The Chinese in the middle-class complain about scholarships
paezbak says:
kite da comfortable
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
I don't know about the Malays of course
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
And whenever we think about these, it sparks racism once again!
paezbak says:
so, climbing up ladder kite nye priority
paezbak says:
the lower class
paezbak says:
i mean yg btol2 low
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
Unless you decide on staying within the middle-class income bracket
paezbak says:
for them its only
paezbak says:
about surviving
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
Exactly. And the lower-class Malays would always think all Chinese are rich?
paezbak says:
yesh
paezbak says:
while the chinese lower
paezbak says:
would say its
paezbak says:
unfair
paezbak says:
so, here we go again
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
But, the amazing part of it is that all races of the lower-class income bracket seem to be more united
paezbak says:
heheh
paezbak says:
well,
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
It's a never-ending cycle. Which is why I think Anwar's idea of abolishing NEP and focusing on narrowing the economic gap regardless of race may have a better chance to diminishing racism
paezbak says:
nep
paezbak says:
die xfocus for lower class...
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
http://tatterdemalion-veritas.blogspot.com
paezbak says:
i mean
*unicefKanzen*naf says:

paezbak says:
xnak
paezbak says:
heheh
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
It's severely exploited by the rich Malays if you ask me
paezbak says:
yup!
*unicefKanzen*naf says:
And the Chinese misuse the NEP to climb the monetary ladder as well